H1N1?

OMG!

Just after the class gathering, i was down with FLU, FEVER, BODYACHES! the three atypical signs of h1n1..i was so sick last saturday that my mum had to drag me to see a doctor. my poor old lady..she loves me so much yet she refuses to show it very often. (ps.i love her 2) So we went to the GP at 12.30pm, the Doc refused to see me. He only checked my temperature (38.7 degrees) and called for the ambulance (993) to come fetch me to tan tock seng hospital. He refused to treat me. So yeah, there i was hanging onto dear life..(ok! i sound so melo-dramatic!) i waited for the idiotic civic ambulance to come. they only arrived @ 3.35pm and by then i was giddy and nausea..i sat in the awful smelling ambulance and nearly died cos the dumbass driver was rounding Ang mo Kio for 20 mins, just to reach another avenue to pick up another suspected case..by then i've already pucked and i was looking like a piece of waste material! And the old chinese lady who came into thge ambulance thought i died. she refused to look at me. i guess she thought i was the H1n1 virus itself! She was already wearing a mask yet she covered her nose and mouth region with both her hands! bloody swine!! babi-eating swine! grrr....

i was too weak and sooooooo wasted to purposely cough on her face...so i let her pass..

@ Tan Tock Seng Tentage, time 5.00pm. i was seen by a messy lady doctor. she was quick. she only saw me for 10mins. she I/V cannulated me and took some blood for investigation. gave me some painkiller and zoooooommm she went away....temperature was (39.3 degrees). i slept..on a very uncomfortable trolley. they left me on drips and she only saw me again @ 9.15pm. i only remember her telling me that i was free from H1N1 and i needed to rest alot...what happened after that was history!

singapore's medical treatment receival timing is sooooo lacking. everythng happens in a delay. we are so ready for a outbreak yet we fail to see the smaller issues!...thats something we've gotta improve in our medical response field.

oh yeah, i got well..after alot of crap and pep talks. hahahaha. i love my friends. they are sooo random. just like me...so god pls don't make me sick again like for the next thousand years. if i live that long..........

Kanmani......

"உண்டான காயம் இங்கு தன்னாலே ஆறிப்போனமாயமென்ன பொன் மானே பொன் மானேஎன்ன காயம் ஆன போதும், என் மேனி தாங்கிக் கொள்ளும்உந்தன் மேனி தாங்காது செந்தேனே.....

எந்தன் காதல் என்னெவென்றுசொல்லாமல் ஏங்க ஏங்க அழுகை வந்ததுஎந்தன் சோகம் உன்னைத் தாக்கும்எண்றெண்ணும் போது வந்த அழுகை நின்றதுமனிதர் உணர்ந்து கொள்ள இது மனிதக்காதல் அல்லஅதையும் தாண்டி புனிதமானது...."

Oh where, Oh where...

Has this beautiful thing called LOVE gone??

i'm so randooooooommmmmmmmmm!

i'm currently watching VIJAY TV's super singer, and i've got no words to express how awesome they are! And they sound so pleasant, some talents we don't usually see in our local scene.. seriously! The judges are so warm and the indians from india are so talented. I remember some time back there was a social riot on "Why the indians from india are smarter than our local indians...", well, for one they are way more "thick-skin" than us. They NEVER EVER let any opportunity to pass by. Even in our local schools, the India Indians are the ones scoring A's in subjects like maths and science. they really seem to appreciate our cruel education system here! Like HELLO! please get a life!! why are you all making us look bad? hahaha...

It's not like we're not trying..we just need to finish the game on our PSBs and XBOX. so yeah..wahahahaha..we singaporeans are so lame and lazy! please slap our parents for supporting this "ang-moh-nized" culture! Well, my parents didn't give me such things. And i learned the hard way so yeah...WHATEVER!

hahahaha...so mahendran, i hope you are reading my random posts. since you were so upset with the fact that i didn't update my blog! I shall promise to update regularly ok..since i'm so freeeeeee....and hey, all the best for your case study ok! My dearest scientist/doctor/nutritionist/techinician/driving instructor/security guard!! best in singapore, sinagpore and some say, singapore...!!!

1 minute to FAME!

well, yes...i FINALLY tried out for the VSTAR auditions today. AND it sucked pretty bad. i WAS pretty upset that my journey ended even before i could start. Hahahahahahaha...apparently i wasn't dressed LIKE A STAR. the judges didn't let the appearance part slip by. they harped on it for awhile before they heard me sing. And singing on a mic was terrible. but hey, i took it all in with a BIG SMILE.

i feel contented today. even though i didn't make it into the competition, i still feel like a winner. and i guess i've finally found the reason to why i wanted to join in the first place! "i wanted to meet new people, i wanted to make new friends!"-i secretly envied shankara because HE made some nice friends! But hey, i too met some nice people. some people whom names i can't remember right now. all of them were nice and warm. putting myself out there today wasn't an easy thing but i seemed to act out my part pretty well. come on, tell me! who wants to be left on a HOT SPOT-where people are judging your appearance, personality, first impressions and etc....? NO ONE! no one wants to feel so small and helpless...

i've come to realise that people aren't what they seem to be. Well, did you know that Mr Chandramohan (a judge from VSTAR!) was actually a part-time Taxi driver. I once boarded his taxi with my family and you know what...He was really a very nice person inside out. He was so friendly and cheerful that we were all talking till we arrived at our destination. But today, he wasn't that same person...instead, he was snobbish, rude, hurtful and mocking..i didn't remember him like i used too. well, its ok to be honest..i don't mind taking critisms but i didn't appreciate the way he had to put his statements across. it was like as if he was trying to be someone else...My question is WHY? Why let the media change your aura? why be something else??....

i'm not going to change myself...but i will repent and learn from the experience i've gained today..it has given something to think about...tc. till next time..

hey ya..2009.

well..as much as i hate blogging..haha. i think i still need a revenue to pour out my feelings..HAHA. tht sounds so lame.

its been a LOOOOOOOOOOONG time since i blog'd. (or even bothered to check...LOL!)

Poly life's pretty much kicking in. I made new friends but i still miss the old ones. I had so many dreams about poly, but nothing seem to match up to my dreams.

i miss working and being carefree.i miss my life.i feel so stressed (during psychology lecture, Mr Mario mentioned that STRESS is a good thing! OH, he's cute btw!).i have so many projects to finish. AND It has only been 5wks since school started.

the word Selfish.

Selfish is a very mean and crude word. Isn't it? Sometimes it hurts too. Even when one does everything to keep others happy, she's labeled as Selfish. I can go on and talk about the things I've done for this ungrateful people who care less about my well-being, but it wouldn't make me any different from them, would it? They talk too much and care less about how they're affecting others. I'm done fighting, what's the use of defending my dignity when they laugh at it?

Selfish actions, can create unnecessary problems, so consider others in your process. Try giving more of yourself and think about yourself less. It's not a good way, to maintain a relationship, whether it be family or friend. If you ignore the things that are important, you'll be the one, hurt in the end. It can't always be a one way street. It's not fair to think that way. So if you're smart, you'll take it to heart and change your actions, today!

Everything seems to be falling into place, or at least i hope. Things may have started off very dramatic at the beginning but i'm getting stronger with each passing cloud. My job has been kind to me, and I guess the relevant rational behind it is "Don't hurt anyone and you'll be blessed." Perhaps it's true.

The more we complain and wind about things, is the more we end up with nothing. We learn along the way. It took me quite awhile to understand that god has his ways to nurture and groom you to face the challenges ahead. I'm blessed i can say. Now the only thing left is to fix broken relationships.

Since Deepavali is round the corner, i'm working a little harder to brighten this years' festival of lights. It's a good time to forgive and forget the past. We may have been hurt one time too many but putting my ego as top priority is not going to heal open wounds. Letting it go, and allowing some space to breath is like the rainbow; so carefree.

"Lord when I look at the Rainbow you have placed in sky so
blue, it reminds me that all your promises are true,
When I look at your Rainbow and see how it's colors
are bright, it reminds me to do what is right
Your Rainbow I have never seen at night, this reminds me
to stay in the light...."