I am really very very happy. My dearest honey has found her Mr right. Things cannot get any better. I'm seriously happy for my sweetheart. She has touched my life in so many ways that I cannot explain. And today when she says she's in love, NO ONE ELSE CAN BE IN LOVE AS SHE IS. Believe me! The feeling is beyond beautiful. Thank you god for answering our prayers. Thank you for always being there for us, even during our lowest peak of life. Through good and bad, till death do us part. Soon I will hear wedding bells and Honey saying her Vows. I'm blessed, sincerely to have met her. I must have done some good deeds in my last life to have met a remarkable person like her.
Dasa is back from his long India trip. Thank you god once again for his safe arrival back to Singapore. Though his trip was a little shakey, I know you have blessed him with the courage and strength to carry on, with your guidance. I have missed him oh-so-badly. And Yes, I'm very productively meeting him everyday. hahahahhaaha...how awesome is that? :) I cannot get enough of him. I enjoy our silly carefree friendship and I want it to remain like this till our time expires. Dasa has been really awesome. Meeting him randomly through Ragu has been the most craziest thing ever. "baby so ugly. bcos mummy thupid!" hahahaha. mad child. where can i ever find a cactus like him?
And yes, with all the goodness, comes the bad. Ok, maybe not that bad! Ragu. I dunno what's happening in between us. Conversations are getting smaller and the gap in between is getting bigger. I miss him ALOT. Somehow, I feel he's slipping away and I can't seem to hold on tight anymore. Maybe space is what we need? I dunno. I am confused but I know he's starting to be a lot more positive than he used to. Now that's a great thing and I cannot ask for anything more. God please give me the courage to let go of unwanted feelings. Because it's starting to hurt and ache inside. I don't need any of this right now. Why is it so hard for a girl and a boy to just be friends? Why? Some feelings can really break a beautiful friendship and I don't want this to happen to us. I may not understand clearly why we met but I know for a fact that he needs a friend now more than a partner. Love is something we cannot force upon anyone. It's something that happens, if it's meant to be. So yeah, Please give me the strength to let all this pass me by, I just want to be happy. I don't want to be a hinderance to someone else. I have so many goals to achieve and I wanna achieve them!
Only my goals for a better future will keep me happy. Not someone else. We can't base our happiness on anyone. I have learnt that everyone will fail us, but not our goals and dreams. I must stay focused. Seriously!!!!! I MUST STAY FOCUSED! Though the mind says one thing, the heart lingers elsewhere. Why la ma??
"Love is strong yet delicate.It can be broken.To truly love is to understand this.To be in love is to respect this."
