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Recently, in a large French city, a poster featuring a young, thin and tanned woman appeared in the window of a gym.




It said: "THIS SUMMER DO YOU WANT TO BE A MERMAID OR A WHALE?"



A middle aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.



To Whom It May Concern:

Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans). They have an active sex life, they get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins, stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Barren Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia. Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.



Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to an identity crisis. Fish or human?

They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them, not to mention how could they even have sex? Therefore they don't have kids either. Lastly,who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store?



The choice is perfectly clear to me; I want to be a whale.

dearest Mahendran :)

thank you for being the only soul in the world to read my blog. hahahaha. its like you have access to my heart and its emotions and feelings. hey, you must feel honoured. hahahaha. out of all people i have met. you are seriously, different. MAD actually. you force me to blog about my life so you can read it! enna la ithu? and you even make me give a deadline for blogging! but thank you, like you mentioned, it has made me feel better. it may not solve my problems, but i feel less burdened. i am often able to express myself better with words rather than talking. talking just screws things up la. big time. better not to talk to anyone about feelings. today is my last day of attachments at KKH. next week is my exams. I am really not stressed about it, i should be. I have not studied. wahahahaha..but i have the weekends to sit down and get to it. All i have to do is understand what I am studying and I am good :) monday 9am is my first paper (ADULT NURSING). Got 4 papers in total. I hope I  am doing a good job la mahen, I just hope I will do well for this diploma and make my daddy proud. He deserves it.

Hey mahen, thank you ok. For...everything. Love you.

i am me, and this is my story.

Where do i start? So many things have happened seen I last blogged. 2010 has taken away many things I have held so dear to my heart. One by one it took away people whom I have held so close, FRIENDS. "Friends" they call it. Who are these people? Why do they seem so important to us? Are they really an essential part of our lifes? "Friends" whom we think will last forever actually really don't even make pass an obstacle. Sadly. Yes, my 6 years of friendship came to an interesting fullstop when an unexpected twist occured. Its rather funny if you see the full picture. The society in general can say a million things but end of the day, its how you perceive it to be that really matters.

IMPORTANT: one thing is for sure, no matter how old you are, you are never too old to be childish! (if you know what i mean!)

So they were leaving, some of them. (note: "they" means the FRIENDS who left) They were busy packing their bags and finding a way out from this dungeon (my life). Their bags sure appeared heavy with all the love and trust I have instilled in them. Looks like they have benefitted with the time they have spent with me. They were definitely not leaving empty handed, they were taking away my positivity together with them. BRATS. They decided to take my box of happiness too. Sometimes being greedy doesn't help.

I found a bigger box full of happiness, FAMILY. :)

So with the sudden emptiness in my life came a gush of importance. My parents :) the past 2 months were really precious. I spent every little moment I had with my bestest friend in the whole world. The person who would give to world to know that I am happy. This special person has been the proudest of me ever since I was born. Unlike many who have left me for their own selfish reasons, this kind self-less soul has lived to watch me grow. But time has come for him to leave this nasty place called earth to be with god where his heart will beat so strong, his kidneys will work like machines and his legs will carry him effortlessly. This wonderful person is..my dad. The man who taught me that love is the most simplest form of happiness and its something thats worth sharing. (ps: even the slightest thought of him brings tears to my eyes) I miss him.

All he ever wanted was to live long enough to watch me graduate and become a staff nurse. I'm really disheartened. No words can express how much I have yearned for him to live. Every day since the 12th of June 2010 till the day he left us, was special. I never knew it was coming. I was selfish. He knew, but he bravely took the risk and fought the best fight. He knew giving up would hurt me, so he tried. But I do thank god for giving me the courage to take care of him when he was sick. I was strong enough to face the worst and encourge him to see the best.

IMPORTANT: nothing beats the feeling of having a complete family.

I have a complete family. Though he may no longer be here physically, he will always live in our hearts.

"Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you"
 
in the loving memory of appa :)
 
09.11.1949-04.08.2010