Director's list.

Why can't I get onto that list? If I aim to get all A in my upcoming exam, I can definitely get on it. I can't waste my time doing useless things. I need to prove it to myself. I actually feel quite useless now. I am a smart girl, but why am I wasting my time? I need to be constantly motivated. I should go home, revise and rest early. I'm going to do this! I can definitely do this! So I can get back on track. WTF have been doing in my life?! I feel stupid with my acts. And I'm not going to sit here and watch others receive the award when actually I'm capable of that too. I have enjoyed too much. Now main goal is Ace papers,& get license!